Dear Mom - Susie 2009

Dear Mom,

I took a trip with Darlene to Chicago for her 40th birthday(Yes, I am turning 40 this year). I travel with Darlene often, but it is usually with the family. This trip was just the girlfriends. Every time she got a call on her cell phone I panicked.

The day you died, Darlene and I were at the Palace of Auburn Hills watching the Disney Princesses on Ice show with Allison and Kayla. While I was driving home, she checked her voice mail and immediately called home. Mike had told her that you had passed. I could tell in her voice that something was wrong, but she wouldn’t tell me. She wouldn’t even tell me who it was about. I had to call Marie and Jim Blough told me. We continued to drive home in silence.

Still to this day, I am a little uneasy about making plans with just Darlene and me. I know I am superstitious, but the day you died still haunts me. I fear that she will get a call that something bad has happened to someone in my family.

Writing this letter brings me sadness and insecurity. Like the first day of Kindergarten; lost and alone. I would rather focus on all the good memories, but in reality, sadness is still palpable.

I think you would have liked the Disney on Ice Show.

Miss you and love you,

Susie